Merajuk Dengan Tuhan

Dalam hidup ini pasti kita punya impian, cita-cita atau harapan. Terkadang impian kita terlalu tinggi sehingga tak tercapai dek tangan, namun ia bukanlah menjadi alasan untuk berputus harap dengan alasan tersebut. Begitu juga jika kita merasakan ada sesuatu yang amat mustahil untuk digapai kerana halangan-halangan yang 'gigantic' untuk diatasi. Tapi lupakah kita bahawa Allah itu Yang Maha Besar dari segenap hal? Ye termasuk juga masalah yang kita hadapi untuk mengapai cita-cita kita.

Pernah sekali, aku benar-benar mahukan sesuatu. Sesuatu yang hampir mustahil untuk aku capai dan terkadang aku terfikir yang impian dan harapan aku itu bermungkinan tidak akan tercapai walau sehebat mana pon aku berusaha. Namun aku pujuk hati, memujuk ia tentang adanya 'sesuatu' yang dapat memungkinkan impian aku itu berjaya dicapai. Lalu aku semat kemas dalam hati, perkukuh dalam jiwa bahawa Allah itu Maha Besar, Maha Berkuasa, Dialah yang memegang hati manusia, yang mampu mengubah yang mustahil kepada tidak mustahil dan mampu membawa impian aku kepada realiti. 

Aku berusaha sehabis mungkin, menangis tatkala lelahnya memujuk rayu manusia dan bertikam lidah menuntut hak. Tapi aku masih kuat kerana aku percaya kejayaan itu pasti untuk yang berusaha. Orang melihat aku kuat, hebat dan tegak memperjuangkan cita tika sahabat lain sudah futur dan sudah jatuh tersungkur ke gaung bernama 'putus asa'. Ye aku kuat, aku kuat keranaNya, aku kuat kerana impian aku dan aku kuat kerana keluarga aku. 

Tapi manusia berbatas dan lemah. Sedang sahabat lain sudah lama mati daripada impian yang sama  dan mereka sudah jauh hanyut dibawa arus deras, di kala itu, aku mula jatuh dan berputus asa. Aku penat. Aku lelah. 

Dan aku berputus asa.

Ye, AKU MERAJUK DENGAN TUHAN. Aku yakin bahawa Allah akan menolong aku, dan impian aku mampu dicapai jika melihat kepada usaha aku. Aku tertanya, tidak cukupkah usaha aku? Tidak cukupkah untuk meyakinkan manusia-manusia itu? Tidak cukupkah? Kenapa Allah tidak membantu aku? Aku nekad! Aku merajuk dengan Allah, seperti anak kecil yang masam mencuka tatkala ibu tidak mahu belikan mainan atau coklat di pasaraya. Tapi seperti anak kecil itu juga, walau merajuk, bila ibu panggil, dia akan menyahut dan melakukan apa yang dipinta tapi hati masih merajuk! Begitu juga aku, aku melakukan apa yang menjadikan kewajipan kepada setiap muslim tapi hati aku merajuk. Aku mahu dipujuk! 

Tapi rajuk aku tidak lama. Aku mula yakinkan bahawa Allah pasti akan membuka jalan yang terbaik untuk aku dan sahabat aku. Kerana apa yang kita mahu kadang bukan yang terbaik untuk diri kita dan sungguh, Allah itu Maha Tahu. Rajuk aku reda, kerana hati aku tidak tertahan rindu pada Si Pemilik Hati aku.

Aku serahkan segalanya padaNya. Apa yang Dia tetapkan, aku akan cuba terima dengan hati yang lapang  dan redha dengan segala kehendakNya. Kita hambaNya dan selamanya begitu. 


1 Disember 2017(1.04 pagi)
-Hamba yang Merajuk

A Goodbye To Wardah

Assalamualaikum everyone! ❤ 

How are you? The weather for these few days keep changing. If the sun scorching until burning your skin in the morning, it would not necessary that the evening would be the same. Here in PJ? During morning I cannot bear the glare of the sun and the evening I turn up hiding in the blanket while both my hand cover up my ears from the deafening sound of the lightning. So, take care of yourselves okay? You might get fever or cough ( like me right now 😝) 

So here we go to the main topic. 
Sayonara Wardah! Here is the good news, we already done our foundation in cfs iium guys!

All of us are overjoyed after 1 year we stick together as roommate, it already come to its end. Actually not a really ending because we are still contact to each other but this time a little bit different because we are going to not meet for 4 months ( if I get into Pagoh, then we will meet again but please guys please make doa for me to continue my study in Gombak. I wish to be a teacher. I will post another entry special about my ambition)

At first Wardah is a super extremely quiet person. I swear guys! She is super duper quiet to the extend you can't imagine. She won't talk unless we approach her first even if we ask question, she will answer it as short as she can. My first expectation for her, I thought she is a boring person, have no friends, a person that you cannot make jokes and everything that is negative.

I tried to be natural with her, treat her like I treat my another roommates. Making silly jokes, wake them up for subuh prayer, ask them whether they want me to buy something when I go to mart.

Wardah just smile when I make jokes, no laughing, no reply. 😅

Slow by slow I makes silly jokes and there are improvement guys! She laugh but only in our room not in our class. So what I do is, I make jokes in class by teasing Wardah infront of my classmates, of course not offensive jokes for her. Then this early 3rd semester she starts doing jokes too! My friends become hers too, we laugh and tease each other. She is 180 degree different from Wardah that I met a year ago. She is the most funniest person in our room, seriously! 👻

It is always like this, everything become better when the end is near. I do love all of my roommates despite of their flaws and attitude that they have. ughhh! Nobody is perfect guys, that is why pencil has erasers. People make mistake, we are not angel. 

That's all maybe from me today, see ya ! 👋

Dare to dream

I was once told by one of my friends, "If you want your goals to be achieved, the very first step is you must start by write and read your goals everyday". Since I just restart blogging, thus I 
I would like to write my personal goals in my life that I think they are almost impossible to be achieved. But yeah, people say, DREAM BIG! 
Before hand, I would like to quote my very best friend, Hazlin. She told, "If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough". She used to remind me with this quote whenever i feel down or in lazy mood to study. She goods in motivate people guys. Need a person that can give advise that can make you feel that you have been knocked by 200 km/h train? She is the best place to go 😆😆😆
Without any delay, let's started with...
 I wish to have my degree in TESL shorter than the actual duration ( currently I am still in foundation )

 I wish after I have my degree, i would like to continue my master and PhD( InsyaAllah) in Europe and would complete them before I reach 30 years old ( Does it make sense?😕)

 I wish to expert in playing piano ( currently I just play keyboard and still learning)

 I wish to expert in archery. I often play archery but it still need to be improved ( please pray for me to join main campus in Gombak after I graduate my foundation. Lots of my lecturers recommended me to join archery club there. I wish I could do so. AMEEENNNN)

 I wish I can learn and expert in horse riding ( So envy with my friend, she attends horse riding class every weekend)

 I wish I can learn and expert in swimming 

 I wish I can be a good writer and produce my own book (this is my dream since primary school)

 I wish I can learn Mandarin and use it for daily days ( hoping to have a Chinese friends since I was so attracted with them)

 I wish I have no feelings to men and not to fall in love with any of them before I have my degree ( HAHAHA)

 I wish I can be an extrovert where communication and interacting with people become comfortable ( I am an introvert- always wish to be a talkative person)

 I wish people can 'see' me. ( complicated to be explained )

  I wish to be a good driver. What people always relate, driving + woman = reckless 😞

Actually these are 1/4 wishes and dreams. Let's keep the rest as secret 😁

People can dream. 
They should dream!
Their thoughts, their minds
Are their right
They can have this, They can have that
But everything begins with the first step
Dream and work your dream! 

New thing to my blog

Assalamualaikum and good morning everyone! Currently it is 0055 and I am still awake facing my laptop scrolling social media *ahaks!* Since it is raya holiday and my nieces and nephew are not around so it is a very fortune time to.... BLOGGING!💕💕💕

New thing to my blog

So yeah, as i said earlier, i am scrolling 'lagha stuff' and i found a very interesting blog post by a Malaysian student who study in Japan. Wow! i read few posts from here blog and i was inspired by one of her post entitle "How To Improve Your English Writing Skills By Blogging" ( Do visit her blog guys!! ) and the post triggered me so much as i am also taking English Course. Having a good English especially in writing is extremely vital for a student who taking this course.

So yeah, to relate with the title of my late-night-and-inspired-post, New thing to my blog, i decided to make a bit different on blog( already think about this a very long longg time ago but only now have the courage to write - since I was so scared of people's judge) which is to write in English. However, I will also write in malay meh! 😆😆😆

Hope you are going to enjoy my coming English post and I would feel so honored if you have any comments ( especially to my grammar) or any suggestions. I feel free to have your words !

Thanks for reading readers!

Always read something that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.

–P.J. O’Rourke

Permulaan Yang Baru

Dalam beberapa tahun kebelakangan ni, aku cuba mencari suatu medium di mana aku dapat meluahkan rasa, melontarkan pendapat dan tempat untuk aku memberi pandangan. Kadang-kadang, suara dalaman bising tapi aku segan untuk berkata, segan meluahkan rasa. Mungkin sebab aku seorang yang ke arah introvert.

Kemudian aku teringat akan blog ini yang aku tubuhkan sejak 2011 kalau tidak silap aku, Ye, mungkin ini medium yang paling sesuai untuk aku. Melalui penulisan di blog.

Untuk 'bersuara' di laman-laman sosial seperti facebook dan instagram, aku agak malu untuk melontarkan kata. Mungkin juga sebab takut dikata fake bila di alam maya. 

So yeah, ni langkah pertama aku dan tulisan pertama aku untuk blog ini. InsyaAllah akan ada penulisan yang seterusnya. Mohon tunjuk ajar, komentar kepada semua pembaca. Dan aku sangat-sangat berharap untuk menjadi penulis sehebat Aiman Azlan, Afiq Sazlan, Ustaz Pahrol dan ramai lagi. Kebanyakan penulis hebat sekarang bermula dengan berblog. Jadi... aku cuba untuk mengikut langkah. 

Akhir sekali, terima kasih kerana membaca and wait for the next entry! 💖💖

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